Wanted: Christmas Spirit

I'm having a difficult time getting into the Christmas spirit. I'm kinda going through the motions but I'm not really feeling it. I was suppose to meet my parents in DC at another family member's home but they are no longer going and it costs an arm and a leg to fly to Florida. My brother is working over the holidays and even though Danielle will be here, it will be one of the loneliest Christmas' ever for me.

I bought a Christmas tree hoping that will help but it's undecorated and the decorations are sprawled all over the dining room. When we brought it home, I had instant regret about buying it and wish I could take it back or donate it to a family who couldn't afford one.

I ventured out this morning in hopes of starting some Christmas shopping and came home with nada. When did Christmas shopping become so superficial? I would like to go back to basics when you gave gifts as a reflection of the gifts brought to Jesus, because they had meaning no matter how much they cost. Not because you feel like you have to spend X amount on a person or buy X amount of gifts for one person. Aggrrr! Don't mind me. I'm just out of sorts this year. Usually, I'm obnoxiously filled with Christmas Joy. This year I'm feeling very Scrooge like.