1ww dreams

After 11 cycles of ttc, I can escape the imaginary symptoms, I can escape the need to poas starting at 9 dpo (barely). However, I just can't avoid the 1ww dreams. Aggrrr, the oh so emotionally driven 1ww dreams. What are they you ask? They are the dreams that focus on being pregnant and while you are having them they feel so incredibly real, you just know it's happening for real. All until the alarm clock rings and you realize, "no, it was all just a dream." You are hit with sadness at the realization and a heavy heart. Last night, I had my second 1ww dreams for this cycle. I had a dream that I had IB and then the next day I tested and I had a bfp. I felt so sad when I woke up.

Anyway, off to make dinner: Beef and shrimp fried rice. Wish me luck.

9 dpo- no symptoms (real or imaginary). 3 days until testing. Trying to believe that this will happen to me.

Dreams

Last night I had my elevator dream. This is one of the two common crazy dreams that I've been having for years.

Elevator dream:
I get into an elevator, sometimes there are people in there with me but mostly I'm by myself. The door closes and it just free falls--FAST! We must fall at least 30 stories. Sometimes the lights go out and sometimes they stay on. No one ever gets hurt but I'm terrified and sometimes there's nothing to hold on to.

Backseat driver dream:
I am in a car by myself and I am on the drivers side but in the backseat. Somehow the car is moving and I have to steer it from the backseat. I am always on a bridge and I have to manage to get the car across the bridge.


What do you think this all means? I have my own thoughts but what do you Freudians think? BTW, this isn't the first time I've had my elevator dream during the tww.