Fever

Just great...Not only am I in pain but now I have a fever (101.2). I guess the hot/cold sweats and skin that hurts to the touch should have tipped me off but it wasn't until I took my temp, I got confirmation. Have I mentioned how wonderful Danielle has been throughout all of this? It's weird being so dependent on someone. I have a lot of guilt about it but she has been such a trooper. I also want to thank Tosha for texting me through my fever crisis.

Lets call it what it is... denial

I wholeheartedly agree with the idea that ignorance is bliss. Okay, maybe not all of the time but there comes a time in the tww when you are close to testing but you don't want to test because you enjoy living in la la land with the idea that you could be possibly pregnant. POAS ruins all of that and just puts you down in the dumps.

Today I had my preoperative physical. They took 5 vials of blood (yikes) and asked for a medical history. I, ladies and gents, am in excellent health! At any rate, I was told that they will take a blood hcg test the morning of surgery (Thursday) which will be 10 dpo. I'm terrified to know the answer because at least with a urine hpt you can live in la la land. Wait, should I just call la la land, what it is? DENIAL. Okay so you can live in denial for a few days thinking maybe you took it too early, maybe you drank too much water beforehand and the hcg is diluted, etc. But with a blood test, you can't live in denial. It's the hard core fact. So even at 10dpo, I don't think there is much room for error right? If I get a negative on a blood test at 10dpo, what are the chances of that being a false negative? Should I ask for a quantitative vs qualitative? God, now I'm trying to bring you guys into denial with me. Stay away folks, stay away.

I'm very nervous about surgery. I seem to be more nervous about the anesthesia than with the surgery itself. Did I mention because I'm in the tww, they are giving me a spinal block so I'll be awake the entire time? Good times I tell you. So with all of that, do I really want to deal with a bfn on top of it? Should I ask not to be told? The only silver lining and this is a stretch is that if it is negative at least I'll already have an excuse to wallow in bed for a day or two and a new bed at that.

The construction is going a little slow but tomorrow they should make some headway. Fingers crossed.


Glammie this is for you:
hpt- home pregnancy test
poas- pee on a stick (peeing on a pregnancy test to see if you are pregnant)
hcg- the hormone detected in pregnancy
dpo- days past ovulation
tww- two week wait which is the time between ovulation and when your period is due.
bfn- big fat negative (on a hpt)
bfp- big fat positive (on a hpt)